Sunday, July 31, 2011
blogspot, I like you better. @ 11:00 PM
TUMBLR: glorified xanga.
blah. I thought it was going to be good, but there isn't a whole lot of writing going on which is definitely a draw back. Well it seems like Tumblr is the trendy thing to be doing right now so I am going to continue to try it out. So for the moment I will be keeping up with two blogs until I decide which one I like better. Tumblr seems to be a lot about followers and friends and reposting other peoples stuff. I just want to write dammit.
Anyway.
Earlier today I posted on tumblr, so I will simply repost it here because I liked it so much. In the future however I think I will have separate posts.
-because it’s sunday.
Ecclesiastes 5:5- “It is better not to make a vow than to make one and not fulfill it.”
How did I become such a slacker? - I asked myself this morning. The sad epiphany hit when I woke up on my couch this morning, got up, grabbed breakfast and proceeded to watch church on television in my pajamas like a complete bum. This is not the routine I have always been in but it is very much what I am used to now, although I can’t remember the last time I actually watched a sermon on tv..
That all being said, I don’t really believe in the church anyhow so I very much will be dragging my feet the next time that I go. Do not let my disbelief in the church be confused with a disbelief in God. Not the same thing. I believe in a relationship with Christ 100%. I know it is the prayer I said with my grandmother before she died that took her. And I know that the Lord brought me to the passage that I randomly selected to read with her on her last night. The church itself however, is full of shenanigans. If there is one thing I cannot take it is that “holier-than-thou” Christian that finds the need to attend church 2+ times a week simply because he cannot remember what he believes. Yes, it is nice to have fellowship with other believers, but this type of weak Christian is a cripple simply using the church as a crutch. It is said that Christians are supposed to “live in the world, but not of the world,” this cripple can’t do that. He will extricate himself from society and live in the safety bubble of the church with his “holier-than-thou” attitude and treat the rest of us like the slime and dirt of the earth. Just when he feels that he can begin to integrate back into society he will fall back into the same traps as before begin to live “in” the world, then once drenched in filthy sin crawl back to the church and be reminded of what he actually believes in (because he went into the world and conveniently forgot) and crucify himself for his worldly actions. Then the cycle starts over. Some of us don’t need to be reminded constantly of what we believe in, it is imbedded in us, along with the Holy Spirit, a conscience, oh and a proper back bone that let’s us stand up for what we believe in.
On another note, I think all churches should re-instate robes. Robes are very uniform, very formal. It shouldn’t matter what you wear to church, you shouldn’t be judged on it. Robes-problem solved.
Will I be a slacker in college? Only time will tell. Perhaps I will be filled with conviction and need to find a church
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Connecticut: I found green grass @ 8:36 PM
So here I am in lovely Connecticut :3
I knew I wasn't going to commit to blogging while I was up here. I am always deadbeat tired when I get home. But nonetheless here I am.
It has been fun. I love seeing my family. That is one of the reasons I hate where I live so much.. no family. :/
Tomorrow is beautiful parks including the one I plan on getting married at! And the abandoned Seaside Sanatorium, one of Connecticut's closed state mental hospitals. Spooky. eeeeeeeeeee ^.^
I don't know how one person (me) can simultaneously love and be so interested in creepy abandoned buildings and not have the stomach for scary movies and get panic attacks from thinking of death. Oh well. Headed home on Wednesday. Nuts.
listening to: baby i love your ways- peter frampton
Thursday, June 30, 2011
12:57 am + a critical analysis of new TBS @ 11:19 PM
this is being composed on my brand spankin' new Macbook Pro :3
this girl has no free time anymore. that kind of puts a damper on the whole "starting a blog" thing. I want to try to interest the world and a person who doesn't have time to sit down and put down a thought isn't all that interesting.
ok so what's new?
Today I received in the mail my lovely Juicy Couture laptop case which I intend on pimping out my Mac with. I got it oh-so-very on sale which I'm pretty pleased about.
Enough of the dribble. Onto the fun stuff ^_^
Yesterday after a long anticipation, I purchased Taking Back Sunday's self-titled new CD. Am I disappointed? Slightly.
Here is my take on the album:
Am I glad that TBS is still together and still producing music? Yes. I will always support.support.support. Am I pleased with the refurbished line up that comprises the band? Yes, extremely.The album itself. 23059482509238520985 times better than New Again, which I didn't even bother buying. "El Paso", "Faith", and "Who Are You Anyway?" are my favorites. Good stuff. The rest of the album is ehh. "El Paso" is that good old Taking Back Sunday we were all hoping for. "Faith," has a new sound but those earnest pleading lyrics we can all relate to. "Who Are You Anyway," this song is love/hate. The lyrics are awesome, the concept is not wasted on me. But the song itself is the sound of the Killers and MCR if they had a baby and that baby was ugly. Have I listened to it non-stop nonetheless? Yes. The lyrics are like a bad habit.
I'm too tired to go on. I'll analyze the rest of these shenanigans later. After working both jobs tomorrow.
Thursday, June 23, 2011
@ 12:07 PM
today I am trying to get my act together because it has been falling apart. At the moment I am trying to force myself to fill out scholarship applications..better late than never. To further indulge in melancholy, I found "Be Here Now" by Oasis in my house. New album of the month for me. Followed up closely by Radiohead which is also pleasantly depressing. Lunch with former work friends, then work! Yay, must save every possible penny for my Connecticut trip, which I am highly looking forward to. No rants for now. Possibly a long explanation of everything I love about Connecticut later.
Monday, June 20, 2011
thoughts from 1:18 AM @ 1:44 PM
1:18
Maybe it's not what we want, but it's was easiest right now. Sometimes that's what we choose, to run from what we really want because were scared. Scared of those feelings, of what will become of them. Scared of being hurt. Maybe not even that. Just being scared of accepting it, whatever it is, having to deal with it; allowing it to penetrate our minds, weakening us. It's enough to drive someone insane, so we don't let it. We run. We hide from the very thing we value most. Because it's easier this way. Easier to cut it out and pretend it's not there than to just accept it for what it is and what it might become.